…the sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow…there’ll be sun…

So…it’s been awhile…

Check, check…is this thing on?

Crickets Chirping…

I deserve that…lol…

So here is the thing.

I got married March 6th…2010…but then you already knew that. ¬†Jason started going to school in August…God Bless the GI Bill ūüôā ¬†So it has been nice having him home…consistently…

Let’s see…anything else? ¬†Hmmm…Oh yeah, I am pregnant! ¬†The whole doctor telling us that it was not going to happen thing…not so much…We are due in two months…two weeks before our first anniversary! ¬†We are thrilled, over the moon, so very excited…clearly God had different ideas about our lives than the¬†doctor¬†did. ¬†It was a surprising and amazing thing to find out, after having been told for 15+ years that I would not be able to have children on my own that I was indeed carrying a baby. ¬†The word “shock” cannot fully relay how I felt…

The pregnancy has been an adventure for sure…I feel pretty good. ¬†Of course we are coming down the home¬†stretch¬†now and I am tired and I don’t ever want to pee again…EVER! ¬†The first part of the¬†pregnancy¬†came off without a hitch…I had bad morning sickness…in fact it was so bad that it carried over from morning into noon and night for the first 6 1/2 months…lol…everyday, all day long…whew. ¬†Thankfully that passed a few weeks ago. ¬†Other than that all has been good. ¬†We are having a girl, her name is : Anna Paige…she is officially due on March 17th…St. Patrick’s Day ūüôā ¬†I have an appointment for an ultrasound this Friday and they will be able to tell us how big she is…she feels huge but I know most Gastric Patients have smaller babies so we will see.

Speaking of Gastric Bypass and pregnancy. ¬†That part of the journey has not come¬†without¬†it’s trials. ¬†As I said, ¬†March is¬†our¬†first wedding Anniversary…it will also be the¬†third¬†anniversary of my Gastric bypass and then of course Anna is due…March has become a big month for us…lol…although I am almost three years out at this point my stomach never did stretch…I can still only eat about 1/2 a cup to 3/4 of a cup of food at a time if it is a slider food. ¬†This of course has proved a challenge with a little one on the way. ¬†For the first several months I lost weight and then slowly began to put some on…all in all at 32 weeks pregnant I have gained 14 lbs…¬†obviously¬†not typical but I struggled physically and emotionally through every one of those pounds. ¬†I fought hard to gain them and died a little each time I succeeded. ¬†I know how important the nourishment is for the baby and I never tried to sabotage that or anything drastic…but the pregnancy has put me above the 200 mark. ¬†Granted it is 204 but over it is over it and I know I will probably gain 5 or more pounds before all is said and done…I can’t tell you the anguish that accompanied the morning that I hit 200…200 is such an ugly number ¬†to me…it was symbolic of hurt and pain and disillusion. ¬†I am trying to associate a new meaning to it…one of health and joy and a happy baby. ¬†That is a work in progress…It helps to know that once she has been born I am well equipped to take the weight off. ¬†I have the tools and I will succeed again.

I am blessed. ¬†So very blessed…at times it is easy to gloss over that and get lost in the comings and goings of the days and weeks and months but at the end of the day…once again God’s plans for me, and indeed my family have far exceeded any I had for myself.

Speaking of family. ¬†Becky, my¬†step-mom¬†has been fighting breast cancer now for almost a year…it has not been easy. ¬†She has had her mastectomy. ¬†She has gone through the¬†initial¬†5 months of chemo, she is finishing up 5 weeks of radiation and she has begun a residual year of chemo…¬†unfortunately¬†the Cancer she has feeds off of estrogen and certain proteins which make it a complicated beast to beat. ¬†All in all she is doing a think as well as can be expected. ¬†She was approved for Gastric Bypass, the same day she found out she had cancer. ¬†It was not a good day as you might well imagine. ¬†She is still approved and once they can get her anemia under control they have said she can go through with the surgery. ¬†In fact it will probably help with her recovery. ¬†I do not envy her…but am so proud of her and blessed to have her as a “mom”…if you could say a prayer or a thousand for her and my dad, I would be much obliged.

Also if you could say one here and there for Jason and Anna and I…I wouldn’t turn my nose up at those either. ¬†We will have some tough decisions ahead of us soon…Jason needs to find a new job. ¬†As he can’t work offshore and go to school and of course he wants to be home with the baby and I as well…so big changes to come in the year ahead for the Jaeger’s…

Anywho…I don’t know when I will post again. ¬†It may be 2012…lol..I will try to not wait that long but I make no promises.

Prayers for you all out there in the blogging cosmos…whereas I may not show it as much as I once did…I value you all…thanks for being a part of my journey…you add depth and richness to my life’s journey.

xoxo…Jil

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