You say it’s your birthday…

So… today is Jason’s birthday.  He is 38.  We have never gotten to celebrate his birthday together…we have never gotten to celebrate my birthday together either…we celebrated my birthday early one year…and his early this year…as in a whole month early but we have never actually been together on our birthdays.  It kinda really totally sucks.  So I wished my husband “Happy Birthday” on Facebook…wahoo…how screwed up is that?  Everyone is trying to be super helpful by saying things like, “Don’t stress about it, you only care right now cause you just got married,  in 15 years you won’t even care if he is not there in fact you will be glad if he is gone/out of town/on an ocean somewhere…””…umm…WTF?  I mean I know they are just trying to be helpful…in their own special way…but the reality is that I have not been married for 15 years…I have been married for a whopping 15 minutes and it is okay for me to be a little down that on his birthday my husband is on a ship on his way to the frigid arctic circle and I am here, taking care of the house and walking the dogs and carrying forth with “our” life…

So there…Hmphhh…

Anywho…can you tell I am a bit down today?

I think I mentioned my stepmom Becky, was diagnosed with breast cancer a couple of weeks ago right?  Well she had her first round of chemo on Monday and I think she thought she was going to not be affected by it that badly because the day afterwards she felt decent.  Then she called the day after that (yesterday) crying because she doesn’t feel good…I feel so horribly for her…she has my Dad there and a couple of friends…but all of our family is here (Houston, TX) and in Kansas City, KS…she is in Little Rock, AR…I wish I could be there for her…just to make her laugh and feel like she is not so isolated…but it is not to be…

I hate Medicaid and Social Security…this is unrelated to Becky and her cancer…this has everything to do with my biological mother and the fact that all SS and Medicaid do is jerk her chain and complicate my life…

I hate TxDOT too…but that is completely unrelated…

Wow…there is a whole lot of hate going on in this post…so i will try to change it up…

I LOVE wedge heels…love them…I have two pair now…one copper colored and one black and I love them…I also love my dutch oven and my KitchenAid Stand Mixer…

I love my patio garden and the fact that I am no longer a plant killer…and in fact seem to have some sort of a gift…I find joy in in my backyard…and I have some happy plants…proof that old dogs can learn new tricks…

Here are a few random things today…

  • I bought a new top…it is a faintly pink linen shirt and it makes me look pregnant…I did not realize this until I saw myself in the bathroom at work…I am NOT pregnant…just sayin’…
  • I could really go for a Philly cheese-steak right now…
  • It’s humid here and summer has begun to creep in…I really, REALLY wish I liked summer…but if I can’t like it at least I have gotten better about bitching about it…mostly…
  • This is my 3rd blog post this month…pretty fancy…
  • Jason has been gone for21 days…he will be home in 29 more days…
  • Big Fat Sigh…
  • I don’t like Cat Cora…the Iron Chef…seriously…not really sure why…just don’t…
  • Rachael Rays voice makes my ears bleed…
  • I have had 3 cups of chicory coffee today…thus far…
  • I am in love with Pancetta…I have been using it lately on top of my pizza’s…
  • I make homemade pizza about 4 times a week…it is my sickness…for now…

Well…I guess that is all for now…

Love ya all out there in the blogging cosmos…

JustJil

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We wear our hearts on our sleeves…you probably know a girl like me…

Greetings and salutations…

As usual I have not been great about keeping this blog super-duper current…oops.  I have been having a fairly tough go of things lately and sometimes when the going gets tough, the tough quit blogging…because the tough are actually wusses…

I am in the process of trying to get my mother into an Assisted Living program…I knew the process would suck…AND…it does….it’s a bunch of red-tape-bureaucratic-bullsh*t…but necessary…we will both be better for it…down the road when it is done and the transition has been made…

Jason is gone for awhile, he left 2 1/2 weeks ago and has been up Virginia…but now he is in England and then he heads off to an area which I cannot speak of…lol…he should be home around June 20th…so gone 8 weeks this time…this has been a tough time for me…I am good with him going, he has been gone before…many times over…but things are just so messy with my mom right now it would be good to be able to have some support…ah well…it is what it is…and hopefully by the time he gets home I will have it all sorted out…

I have been lining up some projects to do while he is gone…so I think I am going to paint our downstairs half bath this weekend…maybe…possibly…I was supposed to have a girls road-trip weekend but tragically the girl I was going with lost her husbands cousin to a suicide this weekend…they could use some prayers…they could really, really use some prayers…

Also, My stepmom was diagnosed with Breast cancer two weeks ago…it popped up very quickly and it is very aggressive.  They said that it has roots and tendrils and she will have to have a mastectomy.  She begins chemo today…more prayers please…I feel horrible for her…the day she found out she would have to have a mastectomy was ironically enough also the day that her approval letter for Gastric Bypass came in…she had been waiting anxiously for that letter…hoping that all would be approved and now, clearly it is on the back burner…I pray she regains enough of her health to beat the breast cancer and also be able to have the bypass…she is an insulin  dependent diabetic and the gastric bypass would cure that…it would make an amazing difference in her life… pray that all goes well with the chemo and subsequent surgeries please…she could sure use them…

In all of this craziness I have had amazing support around me…helping me to cope with all of this and lifting me up…I don’t thank my friends nearly enough…but it is so very appreciated…especially with Jason being gone.

The puppies are good…having Remy around has truly turned Daisy to the good side…now if I could just get Remy trained…lol…her “puppiness” knows no limits…

I had a great weekend spent with friends, hit some fun stores for interesting groceries…bought a cute top, went to a BBQ (Thanks Laurie Lou)…saw some more friends, Michelle and Amber and their partners and met some new people as well…and capped it off by seeing Iron Man II…busy, busy, busy…but good!

My youngest cousin Brian’s birthday is Tuesday and so I am going to My other cousin Brett’s for dinner that evening and then maybe out to dinner sometime later in the week with friends again…Trying to keep busy…

That is it for now…for the most part…

Love to you all, blessings and prayers…JustJil

I leave you all with a photo from our honeymoon in Mexico…

Far away...

Honesty is such a lonely word. Everyone is so untrue.

I hate lies.

and just in case anyone is wondering…omission of the truth is still a lie.  Just because you know something and don’t say the opposite out loud doesn’t mean you aren’t being dishonest.

I hate disloyalty.

Do not claim you are someones friend if your actions are going to consistently say otherwise. Admit the friendship is not working and move on but do not claim a loyalty that is no longer there just out of habit or to save face.

I don’t like to have my time wasted by people that are pretending to be something they are not.  If I am going to dedicate my time to you, to us, to our friendship then I want to know that what we have is real and valued…

That is all…Happy Friday.

J