Ooh child things are gonna get easier…ooh child things will get brighter…

Little by little…

Piece by piece…

We are getting there…

It seems like there is going to be a wedding or something…

Church – check

Reception Venue – check

Dress – Check

Tuxedo – check

Bridesmaids – check, check, check, check…

Groomsmen – ditto

Flower girl, ring bearer, ushers – check, check, check

Showers, parties – check, check

Rings – this weekend

Hotel – check

Honeymoon…waiting for passport to come in before we do this…just in case I am wanted by the FBI and they choose to not renew my passport and let me out of the country…which is unlikely but I guess possible…

I am getting a little bit excited…a…little…bit…excited…like maybe it’s going to happen…despite my inept attempt at planning it may happen…we might actually get married…

Maybe…

This weekend is out first wedding shower and I actually have two in one day…The first is at 11:30 on Saturday morning and it’s my old teacher chums…and then that evening at 6 it is a family meet & greet / shower thing…Our families will collectively be meeting for the first time…we shall see how that goes…my mom and all of her specialness will be on full display…and we will be meeting my baby bro’s girlfriend for the first time…Things are special with her…This is different for Dave, a new and different kind of relationship for him, it seems earmarked for longevity and a possible future…He is happy and I feel good about that and I am thrilled for him…she is a Scorpio…I am a Scorpio…so I have been training him his whole life how to handle Scorpio’s…hmmm…he is pretty good at it…most of the time…lol

Anyway…that is where we are today…

Things are moving along…we had our premarital counseling by our pastor…we passed…lol…he is going to marry us…that feels good too…

Continued prayers if you would…there are still things to be done and hurdles to cross…

Today is January 27th…

37 days to go…

Love ya all out there in the cosmos…Justjil

Please remember me…

It has admittedly been awhile since my last post.  I am not going to apologize…it takes too long…and although I always mean it, it’s a little like the boy who cried wolf…if you say it too much no one believes you anyway…lol

I am well.

My weight continues to hold steady.

I feel good.

I feel normal…as much as anyone feels normal I guess…maybe it’s more that I don’t feel abnormal…and that’s pretty dang amazing.

I will be getting married 2 months from tomorrow.  Emotionally I am ready…mentally I am ready…realistically I am NOT ready…I have not been super efficient as a bride to be…I have been too laid back and now with two months to go, it is biting me in the butt.

Still though…on March 6th I will become Mrs. Jaeger…I am excited beyond any earthly expression that I might be able to muster up…how is that for dramatic verbosity 🙂

I have been working on making my house more of a home…decorating and such…it gives me something to do…as Jason has been gone since December 6th…he returns in two weeks…it has been a long winter so far for me…Christmas was good…my family came over but his absence was never far from my mind…I miss him so when he is gone.  He is on a NAVY contract right now…and I am not allowed to disclose his location which is a new thing for me…blessedly they at least decided that I could know where he would be…in saying that…in some ways, though he has been gone this long before it has been tougher…we have not been allowed to have contact…it is a high clearance gig…he was allowed to send me an email the day before Christmas that said he was safe, he loved and missed me and that things were going okay for him…it was not much but it gave me some peace…In my heart I knew that he was okay but it still gave me some relief to hear from him at all…I do not expect to hear from him again until he makes it back on base which should be sometime around the 18th or 19th…and then hopefully I will be picking his punk-ass up at the airport on the 20th or 21st…I am not sure if he gets to read them or not but I do write to him every couple of days letting him know the bits and pieces of our life that continue on here….news of family and such…I would ask if I could, for some prayers…I have a family member who has been having a very tough go of things and he is very sick…I feel he is not long for this world, whether by choice or circumstance…I am praying that whatever the outcome, that he is able to find some peace because he has not known peace for a very, very long time…he has been and continues to be a very broken man…the sadness and heartbreak he has known is beyond my scope…and whereas I am infinitely blessed to not have know his pain, my own pain for him is very real and devastating of its own accord.

On a lighter note…as some of you may remember…I broke one of my ribs back in January of 2009…and was told by my doctor and Jason that I was not allowed any further broken bones for 2009…because I am extremely defiant, I broke my little pinky toe on Christmas eve…so HA!  Tell me not to break a bone will you?…Hmm, we will see about that…now about that toe…holy Mary mother of God…does a broken pinky hurt like holy heck…I tried to put on shoes this weekend…and ummm…not so much…I have been sporting flip-flops and house slippers ever since then…not sure when I will be able to wear shoes again…I have been told that it can take months for it to heal…um, wedding, March 6th…must wear shoes…broken pinky be gone!  Be gone I say!  Because quite frankly, flip-flops when it is 26 degrees outside is nuts…even for me!

Hope this blog post finds all of you well…

Happy…

Healthy…

and blessed!

For despite many of lifes little curveballs…I am all of those things!

Happy 2010 to us all!!!

Love…JustJil

Nov 2009