You keep me standing tall…you help me through it all…I could never make it alone…

I am sorry Kimmie…I am in all ways a loser!  I promised…neigh, I swore that I would write a post by this past Sunday at the very latest and I failed…I failed with flying colors.

Life has been…interesting lately…interesting and extremely busy.  I am good, struggling to get in my protein and fluids…such a very odd problem to have, not being able to eat enough in a day…my weightloss has stalled because I don’t eat or drink enough so my body holds tight to what I give it.  My stomach still has not stretched really…I am over a year out and I can still only eat about 1/2 a cup at a sitting.  If it is a slider food I can get in about 3/4 cup…I know this sounds like a blessing and on some days it is but I struggle every day to eat enough and I fail almost every day…I am working on it.

The move is over and done with…I am now officially living in sin 🙂  Mother nature decided to help with the unpacking process by flooding the night after I moved in so that I lost about half of my stuff because it was in boxes on the garage floor.  Good bye books, journals, photo’s…stuff…it was difficult to let things go even though they were ruined…but such is life.  The water receded and we were able to salvage the carpet in our house…many in our neighborhood were not so fortunate…I am counting my blessings…a friend of ours had just bought a new car and had only made one car payment on it…his car was totalled out in the flood…parked where mine normally would have been.  I am counting my blessings…daily.  Life goes on.  It feels good to only be living in one place, no overnight bags…no rent + mortgage…just a mortgage now…Happier…still making it work, still fitting things in….still turning HIS house into OUR home…it’s a process…it takes its toll at times but we are finding our way…it feels good.  It is good, this joining of lives.  Sometime next spring there will be jitters, a white dress and “I do’s” but until thenI am just happy to love and be loved.

I took my measurements on March 16th 2008, 4 days before surgery.  I have not taken them since then until a few days ago (because I lost the paper that they were on…I found it during the move) and holy guacamole batman…what a difference a year makes.

Waist –  then: 60 inches     now: 36

hips – then: 62.5 inches    now: 43

around boobs –  then: 56.5 inches     now: 40

under boobs-  then: 51 inches     now: 34.5

neck –  then: 16.5 inches     now: 12.5

Right upper arm –  then: 20.5 inches     now: 13

Left upper arm –  then: 19.5 inches     now: 12.5

Right thigh –  then: 37.75 inches     now: 24.5

Left thigh –  then: 36.5 inches     now: 23.75

Right calve –  then: 22 inches     now: 16

Left calve –  then: 21.5 inches     now: 15.75

I am not including this in inches lost because it wouldn’t even register but on my ring finger I wore a size 9 ring and now it is a 6.

Just to add an exclamation point to that…that is a total of: 132.75 inches lost…and with that words fail me…

Liza…I am praying for you and your family.

Kimmie…you will post a picture of the cute, new, sassy do…yes?

Laurie-Lou…Can’t wait to see you this weekend, how is that we live so close and see each other so rarely these days…we are sad little cheese graters…sigh

Mini Meg…congrats on the new rack : ) and the lack of complications…

Heather…I hope the move is a smooth transition for you…

Janine…praying for you and Si…new jobs that are a good fit and bring you joy!

Kim…prayers to you and John on your journeys to health and family.

Jason…just because I know you read this…I love you and the wait to finally find you was worth it!

For all of you considering WLS…if you have a great deal of faith, strength and perseverance the payoff is beyond your wildest dreams…

With Love and gratitude to all of you who help me daily through this journey of weightloss, redemption and life in general…you all humble me…keep telling your stories…you count…you make a difference…and I am honored to have you all in my life.



7 thoughts on “You keep me standing tall…you help me through it all…I could never make it alone…

  1. Junyong says:

    Interesting post. Thanks for sharing your experience of “faith, strength and perseverance”.

  2. Laurie says:

    My mouth dropped when I saw you actually blogged! LOL
    Miss you bunches too, and I’ll see you 3 days this week! I think we’ll have a record! See you tomorrow at the Potter!

  3. Kim H. says:

    I did a happy dance when I saw your blog on my reader again!!

    I’m so happy that things are working out for you – you are amazing! The flood stuff stinks, but man – reading your measurements takes my breath away. 🙂

  4. megameggs says:

    Yep, happy dance here too!! Those inches… WOW! Makes me curious what mine would have been, but I never kept track. Oh well!

  5. Janine says:

    Oh thanks so much for the thoughts, I was so pleased to see an entry from you and then you had made it about others.

    You are truly an inspirational person Jil and I wish I lived closer to be able to hug you and Laurie.

  6. Kim says:

    It’s okay that you were late writing it as I was way late reading it! So busy these days with such an insanely busy month coming up next week!

    But, always thrilled to see a post from you. Love the way you write! You should be so proud of all you have accomplished; not only with your weight loss but with finding the love of your life. I know so many who are still searching.

    Your stuff getting ruined sucks, but the most important things are still intact; your life, your faith, the love of your life. So many blessings.

    Write more when you can!

  7. Laurie M says:

    Love your blog and thank you for your prayers! I can’t wait to be a loser!! thanks for stopping by my blog 🙂

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