Take away, take away, take away this ball and chain…Cause I am sick and I am tired and I can’t take anymore pain…

Oh…I forgot to mention…any of you that read Gastric Girl already know this…but last Friday, March 20th was my one year surgery anniversary (and thanks you Laurie for picking up the slack for me)…I should have blogged at least about that but I didn’t and I am not gonna dwell on that…

Instead I will say that one year after my suregry I am 194 lbs less and 1 million % more healthy…and 2 million % happier!

Thanks so much to all of you throughout this first year…your thoughts, experiences and guidance have meant more to me than you will ever know…

With all of the love in my heart…Jil

valentine

I’ve got one hand in my pocket and the other one is giving a peace sign…

I have a lot going on right now.

I have had plenty of time to talk/blog about myriad things.

There is no shortage of blog topic available to me at pretty much all times.

I have wanted to blog.

I have had the desire to blog.

I have read many blogs.

I have commented on many blogs.

I have NOT blogged.

Sighhhhhh………….

I wish there was a valid excuse but there isn’t…so today, with no aim and no direction I will blog.  It may be absolute bunk when I finish but I will blog…heck I am blogging right now…true, I haven’t typed anything of value to anyone anywhere but still I am blogging and that alone makes me feel like I have achieved some weird level of bloggone success…

I am moving right now…the process is ongoing.  My lease is not actually up until April 30th which kind of sucks because I am a procrastinator…there is no reason whatsoever that I can’t pack everything up this weekend and be done with it…no reason at all…it’s not like I have to wait until the 30th to do it…and yet, I won’t do it.  Why you ask?  Why?  Well because it is just not my way, I wish it was my way, I would kill for it to be my way, I have tried to make it my way but at the end of the day…it is not my way.  I am a procrastinator…it’s just who I am….sigh…partially because I hate moving, well a lot actually because I hate moving…I am 35, I have moved 23 times…this is my 24th…I hate moving…I also hate painting but I love painted walls but I digress…that is a blog for another day…I have actually considered removing a few key things and just setting my townhouse on fire…I have renters insurance it would be covered…I won’t do it…but it doesn’t mean I don’t think about it and smile a wicked smile…so this is all to say I am moving…and I am happy about moving but I hate moving…see my quandry?

On a new topic…my weight has stalled…I have been having some issues with my girlie bits and that has bled over into my weightloss arena…which has been entirely unfortunate…it is getting worked out but it has taken some time and I have gotten slightly anemic in the process…ugh…so I haven’t been feeling top-notch for awhile…look at all this blatant negativity…aren’t you glad I am blogging about it…to share all the bad vibes with you all…I feel so much better thanks…so I am hovering around 184 give or take a pound or two either way depending on the day, moment, hour, what’s on TV, what I am wearing, if I have said any curse words recently or if there is indeed Peanut butter in my pantry or not…that’s just how it is…my life…so many variables…lol

Do not get me wrong, I am happy with 184 for now….ecstatic with 184 for now, thrilled with it….it has just been hard not dropping any and knowing that I have had no control over it…knowing that it didn’t matter if I upped my water, or exercise or…well…anything really…but life goes on and when the bits are back in proper working order the progress will continue and until then I will survive, I will survive, I will survive…hey, hey….

On the plus side…or minus depending on how you look at it, I am now the proud owner of two size 12 pair of jeans…and wait for it….wait for it…I can actually wear both of them…wahoooooooooo….okay so they run a little large for their size but I don’t care!  Go ahead and ask me…”what” you say, Jil, do you care?  heck no – they are a size 12 and I can wear them…no, I don’t care!  See, told you…Hmmm…I think I may be coming across as more of a smart ass than I usually am, I think I detect some attitude on my part…and I will probably care about that tomorrow or maybe Monday but for today…i am totally good with it…

Spring has sprung here in Texas (sorry Kimmy in Mary…land) the azaleas are out of control and all is vibrant and bountiful….sigh…where are you October…I need you so…We went camping a few weeks ago and I will post a couple of pic’s for you…the picture of Jason and I for everyone and the picture of the blossoms for Kimmykins…

Jason and Jil @ Lake Livingston March 2009

Twilight on Lake Livingston

Spring has come at Lake Livingston

That is pretty much it for now…I am good…Jason is good…we are good…my family is good…I am happy and now I have blogged so pretty much my life is complete for now…

Happiness and joy to you all out there in the world…

xoxox…Jil