A brand new day…

Good morning all…it was a long night but today is a new day.  Laurie is doing extremely well…in fact I got a text message from her this morning around 6:30 saying they had her up and moving and she is hopeful that she will be released tomorrow…we will see…I have to say it is absolutely amazing how resilient the human body is…knowing what it went through just several very short hours ago…the fact that she is up and moving is a testament to that resilience, her strength of character and God’s own grace…

The removal of her gallbladder went well and the repair of the hernia as well…the complications arose from the amount of scar tissue that had built up from her initial RNY surgery in October of 2007 it had to be removed and then she was that less than 1% of Gastric bypass patients whose large intestine got crimps in and was tangled up strangulating her system.  So they had to remove the crimps and untangle her large intestines which is what made for a much more complex surgery and tacked on a number of extra hours.  It was a scary time in that waiting room but at the end of the day she is a real trooper and she is feeling much better this morning and I believe she was going to get to have full liquids this morning and I know she was excited about that…we C & P girls are funny creatures, we get excited about the darndest things :)…

Anyway…this is just to let you all know that she is on the road to mending…and I am declaring that besides Kim J.  no one else is allowed to have any of these surgeries.  This kind of overachieveing is uncool…the only reason Kim gets a pass is because she already has a surgery date…but the rest of you…nu unh!

Love to you all this Thursday morning…

xoxo…Jil

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**Update on Laurie**

She made it through surgery and is resting.  There were some complications and what should have been a routine surgery ended up running an extra 3 hours or so.  I will go into detail tomorrow morning but for now I just wanted you guys to know she is okay…

Thanks for all the prayers she is grateful for them all…as am I…

XOXO…Jil

Laurie~~an update…

I just got off the phone with Laurie and they are about to wheel her into surgery.  They will be removing her gallbladder for sure but of more concern is the hernia.  They believe the hernia is intestinal and most likely it is strangulating her system, they won’t know the extent until they go in…

Her surgery is at 5:00pm today, so again as many prayers and well-wishes as you could send her way would be much appreciated.

Love to you all…Jil

Poems, Prayers and Promises…

Good morning all…This is just a request that you all keep Laurie aka Gastric girl in your thoughts and prayers today.  She called our Dr. W. yesterday to make an appointment because she has not been feeling well for the last couple of weeks; after describing her symptoms to him he asked her to reroute and head to the ER…she was admitted last night and after some testing she was visited this morning by Dr. W and will be visited by a surgeon later this m0rning…it appears preliminarily that she has both gallstones and a hernia.  It is looking pretty good that she will go under the knife to have both her gallbladder and the hernia removed.  We are not sure of the time frame yet but considering they are not releasing her from the hospital I believe it will be pretty soon.  She will call me after her meeting with Dr. Ferrari the surgeon (he was my surgeon incidentally) and let me know the score at which point I will update for all of you as well.

I know she could use the prayers and well wishes right now so if you want to leave a comment for her, I will be glad to relay it this evening when I go visit if indeed she is still in the hospital

Thanks…Jil

Ch..Ch..Ch..Ch…Changes…

So this is probably some sort of record for me as far as the timeliness of posts…a lot of important things have happend in a short period of time and they were blogworthy so blog I must…

Todays blog subject matter is that I have hit 189.  189 is exactly half my weight lost…My heighest weight was 378.  I actually hit 189 several days ago but I wanted to wait until the scale said 189 consistently.  So here I am 189, half the girl I used to be.  A number of my recent blogs have also come with pictures, their will be pictures today as well and then that will probably be it for awhile on the pics…One of the pictures today is one you just saw last week, the other is one that was taken on a camping trip the week before I had surgery…it will probably help you understand more fully the shock I had last week when seeing the full body shots of myself…

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March 2008 and then last week…

Do ya see why I was so freaked out?  I mean holy cow…

so my next goal is 175…that is what I weighed when I had my car accident …we will see how long it takes…lol

Meanwhile peace to you all…xoxo…Jil

25 Random things about me…

I was tagged on Facebook to do this and then, I saw that Heather had posted hers on her blog as well so I decided to follow suit…In my innermost heart I am apparently a copycat…lol…but truly there are some things about me that may be enlightening to you guys as well…so I thought I would throw it out there…

1. I am officiallly moving in with my boyfriend in April…mentally I have already moved in…lol…

2. My younger brother Dave has lived with me for the last two years, we will part ways in April and I will miss him but I am happy for the changes we are both making…

3. I have lost 187 pounds in the last ten months…I know that I am not fat anymore, just average…but when I look in the mirror sometimes I still see her, the fat girl and I fear I always will…

4. I fell in love in 2008…as much as I wanted to fall in love I don’t think I ever really believed I would, it is humbling, overwhelming and thrilling all at the same time…

5. I had a debilitating car accident in 1994 and had extensive damage, I was told then I would not be able to have children…I found out in September that the scar tissue has miraculously disappeared and they think I should be able to have children with no problems…I have spent the last 14 years “knowing” I would not have children…I find it hard to believe that somehow that all changed and I am grateful beyond any words that God allowed my body to heal…

6. My mom is a diagnosed schizophrenic…she has been all of my life, growing up I didn’t know what was wrong with her, I just knew she was “crazy”…when I was 15 she was diagnosed, it was my freshman year in highschool…I was relieved when her sickness finally had a name…sometimes there is comfort in knowledge, even if it is not the answer you wanted…

7. I taught Early Childhood Education for 11 years…which is basically pre-school, I retired from teaching 3 1/2 years ago to take a desk job so that I could make a decent living…I make good money, I have a nice home and I don’t have to struggle so much or worry about my bills…I miss teaching every day…I made the right decision but I traded a calling, something which validated me as a human being for a desk job where the work I do means nothing…I sold my soul for the almighty paycheck…most days I miss the struggle

8. I bought a new car in May…it is the first car that I have ever bought that I genuinely love, it is a black, Chrysler Crossfire with two tone leather interior of black/burnt orange…I have never really cared much about cars but every day when I round the corner as I am walking towards my car I get a thrill and at stoplights when guys stare at my car, I think to myself “that’s right, my car could kick your cars ass”…sometimes I don’t even know who I am anymore…lol…

9. My boyfriend Jason is a huge UT football fan, and although I have always scoffed at the whole college football thing, I had to watch 6 hundred and seventy eleven games this past season and I have become a fan…sigh…I even have a UT shirt now…

10. My favorite color is Chartreuse…seriously

11. I used to be a big coffee drinker years ago…several cups a day, at least 4 or 5 if not more…I simply love coffee…the taste…the aroma…the warmth of it….so I find it somewhat sad now that despite my best effort I can’t seem to finish a single cup…I end up zapping the same cup twenty times and I still can’t finish it…sigh

12. I am OCD about ziplocs and disposable containers…if I don’t have twenty boxes at hand I feel vulnerable and insecure…

13. In the last couple of months I have been buying the bags at the grocery stores that are long lasting and help the environment…I like the idea of them…they are sturdier…easier to handle…AND…addictive...the problem is I don’t ever reuse them…I want to…I have them hanging on a special hook in my pantry…the problem is I usually don’t PLAN to go the store, I stop in transit to and from various places so I never actually have them in the car with me when I go…so I keep buying more of them because they are easier to use and carry…I have 16 of them now…sigh

14. My favorite author is Clive Cussler…I have read every book he has ever written both fiction and non-fiction…his books are primarily centered around underwater marine salvage, so the use of ROV’s (remote operational vehicles) is prevalent, I am very aware of their use and function including basic and some elevated terms of usage…so image my surprise when I met Jason, he launches, ‘flies’ and maintains ROV’s…and I actually fully understand the technology and the funtion of his job…when no one else does…lol…and I am a girl to boot 🙂

15. I love board games…all board games…and yes I am totally at peace with the lameness of that…I especially love Cranium and my all time favorite Scrabble

16. I am going to my cousin Bretts and Ryans house for dinner tonight…we are having White Chili…yum…and we will probably indulge my nerdness with a board game or two…

17. I miss Jason a lot…he is working in Louisiana right now and he only gets to come home on the weekends…it is hard on both of us…but soon enough he will head off shore and be gone for 3 to six weeks at a time…I am not sure what is worse…having to say goodbye every weekend again and again or knowing that he is thousands of miles away…right now this is worse but I know after a a week or so off shore when I haven’t seen his face I will change my mind…but at least he has a job that he likes and is good at…even if it does take him to far away oceans…

18. Only my left ear is pierced twice…my right ear is pierced once. No, it is not a rebellion thing. When my Nonnie died in February of 1998 (my mothers mother) she left her jewelry to me…there wasn’t much…I really only wanted her Nursing pin and a pair of gold filigree earings that are the only ones I ever remember her wearing, unfortunately by the time the earrings made it to me, there was only ‘earring’ as opposed to two. So I have two holes in my left ear and I wear her earring in that one…I have never taken it off and never plan to.

19. My first car was 1989 Mitsubishi Mirage, I bought it all by myself in the spring of 1994, I paid for it all by myself in cash it cost $2,039.00 …I drove it for two years and then sold it when I moved to Northern Ireland.

20. I lived in Northern Ireland in 1996/97…I turned 23 there…I was a Nanny for a 13 month old boy, Stephen and Twin girls, Natasha and Kristina, they were seven days old when I arrived.

21. I wrote my first book report in 3rd grade, I read the book Anne of Green Gables…I loved it so much that my book report was three pages long, front and back and I drew three pages of illustrations to go with it…it is still my favorite book of all time and I have read it at least 50 times.

22. If I could be anything in the world and know that I would be good at it and successful, I would probably be a cat burglar…I don’t want to think too carefully about why that is…there are somethings about ourselves we should not explore too deeply…lol

23. I got a viral strain of Spinal Menengitis three years ago…I was hospitalized, and I thought I was going to die…It was the sickest I have ever been…the brain swells a great deal and causes a headache you wouldn’t believe…the headache lasted for nearly three months…the headache was so bad I didn’t even flinch when they gave me the spinal tap…I would never wish anyone friend or foe to have to experience that…the second week…I prayed actively to God that if he wanted to take me, I had had a good life and I was ready to go…and I was serious…it hurt that bad…

24. I can tie a cherry stem with my tongue…

25. I wrote a play called “The Grass is always Greener” when I was 16…it was about a boy named Jasper who lost his sight in an accident which killed his father when he was a young boy, and how he harbored the idea that he was responsible for his fathers death, and ultimately came to terms with his blindness and his self loathing…it sucked….I don’t have a copy of it…it exists only on a hard drive that is inaccesible…I wish I could read it now all these years later…just to know what my writing style was all those years ago…I have started many plays since then…that was the only one I ever completed…

So there you have it…me in a weird little nutshell…lol
Why not take the challenge and tell 25 random things about you…I found it to be…challenging but also refreshing…
JustJil

Smoke and Mirrors baby…smoke and mirrors…

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This is the first time I have actually “seen” my ass since I lost weight and can I just say…Holy Mary mother of God…who is this because it cannot be me…

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I still have hips…genetics I suppose…but at least they don’t brush both sides of the doorway when I walk through it…and then perhaps the most shocking Picture of all…

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I am at a loss for any words to say about this…are those really my legs?  They look so much like…legs.  They can’t possibly be mine…

Here is the thing…you see yourself in a mirror and you can deny certain aspects of your appearance, see fat that isn’t really there and so on but it is much harder to emotionally warp your image when it is a picture…

These are the first full body pictures I have taken in probably 6 or 7 months…and I am in awe…I look so…so…so…small.  I can’t deny it, argue with it, emotionally color it…it just is.  It’s me and it is smallish…This is probably the biggest “WOW” I have had since surgery…literally.

My co-worker Liz saw me today and said stand still, I have to take some pictures…I hemmed and hawed but then I thought…well why not…but I was not prepared for the outcome…

As an aside, I weigh 190 pounds as of yesterday…one more pound and I will have lost one half of my person, which was my next goal…and for the first time since highschool…I am wearing a size 12 jeans today.  Granted I happen to know this brand runs large.  this is the third pair I have bought in various sizes…and the first two although the “right” size were always too large…their is no way in heck I could wear a 12 in anything else but still the tag says 12 and they are on my body and that my friends is a friggin miracle…

HAPPY THURSDAY TO EVERYONE EVERYWHERE…

Just Jil