Life among other things goes on. Nothing astounding to report. Just happy. Just healthy (I hope…lol). I have my 6 month check-up with my surgeon next Friday the 31st. I am both excited and a little bit askeered! For those of you doing the math that is well over my 6 month date because I kept running into snags where getting my labs done was concerned. So I will actually be a month and a half past 6 months but oh well…I am anxious. I want to know that my body is responding well. I want to know that my insides are establishing some sort of equalibrium. I want to be fine, just fine.
On the weightloss front I am still good, really good. Far better than I ever dreamed. I still have more to lose. I still struggle with the idea that whereas I am so much smaller my body is…let’s just call it like it is…creepy. It’s like my body is a hallowe’en costume…lol…just a creepy one at least and not flat out horrifying! I am getting past it. It is funny how we see ourselves so very differently than others see us. Our vision of our bodies is so very skewed. It helps to have someone who loves you, who can see past the sags and just sees you for who you are and who you are becoming. I am happy with what I see when I am in my favorite jeans because it draws everything in and tightens it and makes the package all shiny and happy and lovely. the way I look sans jeans…not so much but like I said, I am working on it.
I don’t blog as I should, I don’t comment as I should but still I want all of you to know…What a comfort you all are to me…Sharing your struggles and your triumphs…Giving this surgery a face, giving it humanity. I love you all…thank you for lifting me up.